but no, no

No

So 'what are we doing?' and 'why are we doing it?'.

We're experimenting with this for the pleasure of doing it

But I must admit also that it has external rewards

such as new friends one didn't know one had
and invitations to lecture or travel

that have come to me immediately I stepped out
from my decades 'in the wilderness'
into this kind of thinking in public
that I must say I enjoy
though it frightens me at times.